so i always say to myself, i have to write down that event or this event….and as usual i forget too, especially with recording of dreams. So, dreams are really powerful and come to think of it kinda scary since they appear at your most vulnerable state.  Come to think of it, whenever you drift off to sleep you leave your body to a world where the impossible just makes sense and pretty much guide your subconscience ‘life’ .

In general, i have a hard time getting frightened or scared in movies.  In fact, a ‘gory’ movie to me would not seem very intimidating at all. However whenever i have a dream about a certain creature ( i really cannot desribe what manner of creature it was but it was scary) and the dream is quite repetitive with the same creature.  Just looking at this beast, not only instilled a great sense of fear in me, but also echoed into my subconscience mind a picture of it, one that if i should even encounter something remotely familiar to it, the memory of the dream creature will instantly pop into my mind.

Another thing i hate to dream about is demonic related.  However fascinating the subject of satanic rituals and such, the feeling of total separation from goodness and light are devastating to the soul.  I have dreams where if i should stray from the good path and yell out in anger and curse, the sky and place suddenly grows darker and more menacing, and shadows become demons and little creatures emerge from the ground, hollowed-eyed and with an almost stop-animation movement but finally a huge shadowlike figure shrouded in dark fog suddenly lunges at me and engulfes me in darkness..i dont know why…but that feeling, of absolute terror and abandonment, is the ultimate horror i can ever experience, dream or no.

and when i awake, i feel like i was gone from home for a long time, as if i returned from battle to a place that i held dear…but somehow looks a bit different…feels a bit different.

like i said, dreams hold power which can change your perspective on things in the blink of an eye.